I came up with the idea for Blind Salvation back in early-2012. The 16-year-old I was back then is very different than the 23-year-old remembering him (most notably, I no longer wear hats).
If there was anything I could go back and tell my younger-self that I know now, it's that so few people really know what they're doing. It's okay to make mistakes and those mistakes don't make you less human, in-fact, they make you more so.
That's the type of story Blind Salvation is, about a man named Orion Corvus who is riddled with indecisiveness and restlessness, a man who seeks out emotional comfort and contentment. Although it isn't exactly my life-story (I mean, Orion Corvus is a vigilante murderer who dons a cape and kills other murderers), there are some emotional parallels. His search for comfort mimics my own search, him dealing with his desire to feed this growing addiction in side of him, and mine being the social-anxiety I was battling through.
I finished writing Blind Salvation in the summer of 2012 and published it March 2015.
Blind Salvation blends elements of the superhero and horror genre, both of which were a prevalent part of my life at the time (and still are, in some respects, especially horror). It tells of a man named Orion Corvus who dons a cape and equips himself with wooden staffs (in one of the covers, he's depicted with red-and-black, however, in the books, I later changed it to black-and-yellow), targeting criminals on the street and killing them. Like many of my novels, (most often, The Canes series) Blind Salvation touches on themes of morality and identity. It features other vigilantes, both masked and unmasked, and, for all purposes, acts an origin story to "the man called Poison," and why he came to exist.
I spent a lot of time with this novel. Most of it was after the fact, fighting my own insecurities, proof-reading it over and over again. Sometimes my fiancee jokes, referencing Blind Salvation as "that" book because how often I make comments at its expense. I think it's because of how much time I spent on it that it's always the butt of the joke. I wrote it while my writing ability was in its infancy, and truly, the only way I could ever be fully satisfied with Blind Salvation is if I scrapped the book altogether and started over. Something I've accepted wouldn't be an appropriate allocation of my time and effort. Instead, Blind Salvation is the first inch on the measuring stick, and hopefully with each proceeding novel, I reach a notch higher than the last.
Blind Salvation wasn't all bad though. It's rough-around-the-edges, but I can still go back and read some chapters and find more than a few things I enjoy about them. In-particular, I loved the first chapter and some of the dream sequences sprinkled in throughout it, which I think show the early-days of the dark-humor I've further developed over the years. If you've stomached Katalene or The Red Flux, Catherine or The Canes Files, I think Blind Salvation amounts to a fun, fast-paced action-horror. If nothing else, it could serve as the humble-beginnings to your favorite author. (wink)
Something I'll never forget about Blind Salvation, however, is how much fun I had while writing it. It started an interest that soon blossomed into an obsession. I'll cherish the memories of looking up "superhero creators" online and designing crude book covers on Gimp. At a time when I was struggling and in search of something (not unlike the character the book is based), Blind Salvation gave me something to be - a writer.